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August 21st, 2006

(no subject) @ 01:31 pm

today i visited heather on my lunch break. i went by myself for the first time. i liked it a lot. there are a lot of pictures there now and i love how her handwriting is on the back. theres a lot of pretty orange flowers there now. i think im going to go by myself a lot.

August 18th, 2006

(no subject) @ 11:43 am

i'm glad everyone always has such good times and hangs out with each other all the time. i wish i could be so lucky.

August 11th, 2006

(no subject) @ 12:46 pm

i haven't updated in a very long time. this summer is so depressing. i work 40 hours a week. i have no time for anything. me and cassie were looking at a summer ideas list that i made during the school year, and it made me so sad thinking about all of the stuff i missed out on doing this summer since i work every day. the only "goal" i completed was making up new words, and that was by mistake. my friends are always away on vacation and its sad. nothing goes my way, and im going to change that. im sick of being walked over to make other people happy. what about my happiness? i guess i dont have a right to be happy. great. now i need to pee again. im not gonna. actually maybe i am i realy have to go brb. k back. so yeah, whatever im bored and just felt like i should update. i have nothing of meaning to say, how sad is that? fuck this summer. senior year better be amazing. i have a feeling its gonna be really good and i havent thought that since 8th grade, so i really hope so. i cant wait until all of gravy is together again. guys, we need to take our senior pics! ok well thats about it. see you later, lj.

June 28th, 2006

(no subject) @ 10:52 am

im packing for hawaii. its wednesday and i have to leave to go to my dads on friday. so yeah. im going to miss you all sooo much!! i hope everyone has fun with what they're doing and please be safe! i love you all.

June 26th, 2006

(no subject) @ 12:03 pm

FIVE days until i am here....

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June 22nd, 2006

(no subject) @ 10:07 pm

it is so fucking hot up in my tiny ass cape cod room. fuck.

i came so close to getting a kitten the other day at work its not even funny..

(no subject) @ 02:28 am

private entries here i come

June 20th, 2006

(no subject) @ 08:05 pm

im not even going to say it.

god i wish so many people didnt read LJ

June 18th, 2006

(no subject) @ 09:11 pm

today was fa fa day.

i hung out with cassie after the family stuff. we went swimming at the culinary. it was mad good. we're gonna go there a lot. we sat in the sauna for like 20 seconds. badass. then we went to a bunch of places that were closed and then to KFC. we ate our KFC by the river in pok. Mr. Small Arms ;] then i dyed her hair and she killed some ants. today was really fucking hot.

see you later, elj.

oh ps. tomorrow is matts 18th birthday. it will be illegal for me to kiss him for almost a year.

bull @ 04:32 am

ugh. i hate when i get like this. i hate it so much. i really dont expect any comments on this. i just need to write this out so i can look at it when i wake up and see if i still feel this way. i probably will because its all i ever think about.

i feel as if i have no one. yeah i have a bf and 3 best friends, but i feel like im last string to just about all of them. please i dont want anyone getting mad at any of this. i dont even expect anyone to read this since im gonna delete it after i reread it in the morn. all i want is to feel like i mean something to someone. anyone. i would do just about anything for any of those four people and i feel like they wouldn't do the same for me. i dont like talking about this bc i know how annoying it is, but its just something i have to get off my chest finally. even if it is just to LJ. sometimes i feel like LJ is the only thing in this world that considers me a BFF bc it is always there for me and isnt mean to me ever. thats gay but true. i dont know what id do without you elj.

i just want my fucking kitten already so i can snuggle with it and feel like something in this world actually needs me. bc right now, i think anyone could do without GMA and do just fine.